My Swatmail inbox is disturbingly empty. I'm almost starting to miss the reserved students emails. But then I remember I only want the information from 1 out of every 7 of them and realize I don't really miss them after all. And they'll be back in full force on Monday anyway, I'm sure.

Got an email from my older brother. He's going to call me tomorrow. I feel loved.
It's really nice that since my brothers went off to college we actually get along rather well. They're both very cool people, and I enjoy talking to them.

I really need to do something productive now... And I really don't want to. I guess I'll do laundry. It's productive, yet doesn't require much effort. Good stuff.

I should be being productive, but I'm not... At least not in the way I should be. I should be working on my English paper or reading history or something like that. Instead I'm sitting on my computer and downloading music. Hey, at least when I do start working on my paper I'll have a lot of good music to listen to.

Things making me happy at the moment:

1) Solitude. Right now it's just me in my room, which is nice because it hasn't happened for awhile. And every once in awhile, you just need to be alone.
2) Sylvia Plath. Just read three poems for English class (one of which was Daddy, which I really like)... I'll also be reading some Anne Sexton.
3) Weezer news: The guys will at some point be releasing a deluxe edition of the Blue Album with B-sides on it and interesting liner notes and such. That will rock.

There are some other things too, but those are the big ones. Whee.

I knew my worries were completely irrational. But it's always nice to be sure.

I just spent way too much time looking at various desktop backgrounds and other random artwork online. Oh well, it's not like I have to get up early tomorrow. And I was getting tired of Stonehenge.

For some reason, worry is creeping up on me. Just this doubt that I know is completely irrational but still there. But I'm not going to let it lurk in the back of my mind. Nope. Not this time. This time I'm confronting it and getting it out in the open.

Eep. Confrontation is scary.

Back at Swarthmore... It took longer than I had planned (damn you delays!), but I made it home in one piece. Whee. The rest of my break is laid before me, and I'm not entirely sure what to do with it. I have work I need to do, but I also just want to sleep and go explore the Crum Woods and such.

Perhaps a week off is a bit much... I can feel myself getting lazy. God. Imagine what it's going to be like after winter break...

I feel like the Hallelujah Chorus should be playing right now. I'm finally caught up with all my email. All of it. I feel so very proud - this is the first time since I arrived to Swat that I haven't had any emails I had to respond to. It's really cool.

Saw Underworld last night. It was pretty good. I wish I could have most of the movie's wardrobe. I don't think I could ever be goth, and I don't think I'd ever really want to be... But some of the clothes are just so damn cool and sexy.

I'm heading back to Swat tomorrow. I've had fun here, but it'll also be nice to go back home (because ML feels like home now).

I'm at Bard right now. Whee! They're on fall break, so there's not a ton to do, but I'm still having fun. We've watched a number of movies and played some pool and such. The campus is pretty... I'm kicking myself for not remembering my camera. Oh well.

We're going to go see Underworld tonight. As Claudia said, "Vampires vs. werewolves -- What could be cooler?"

I'm catching up on my sleep, and my body definately appreciates it. Yay!

Fall break has officially begun. Woohoo! It feels weird, knowing that I don't have class for a week. What makes me weird, though, is that this afternoon, while I was lazing about, I picked up one of my history books and read for a bit. That's right. Friday afternoon, fall break, and I do some work. I'm a strange, strange girl.

Speaking of history... Had my midterm today. Not sure if it went well or not. I'm pretty sure that it didn't go horribly, but there's a lot of grey area between horrible and well. So we shall see.

My radio show went well last night; no major problems or anything. I won't have a show next week... *sniffle* Anyway, here's what I played last night. It was a rather emo-ish show... (Yes, I did indeed just use the word emo-ish).

Belle and Sebastian: Get Me Away From Here, I’m Dying
Further Seems Forever: Wearing Thin
*Death Cab for Cutie: The New Year
OK Go: Hello, My Treacherous Friends
Jets to Brazil: Lemon Yellow Black
*The New Pornographers: Miss Teen Wordpower
The Get Up Kids: 10 Minutes
Something Corporate: Fall
*The Kills: Cat Claw
Weezer: Getchoo
Alkaline Trio: Donner Party (All Night)
*Pretty Girls Make Graves: Chemical, Chemical
Jimmy Eat World: Believe in What You Want
Dashboard Confessional: Hands Down
*Grandaddy: El Caminos in the West
Saves the Day: As Your Ghost Takes Flight
Guster: Two Points for Honesty

I have to pack tonight... Because I'm going to see Claudia tomorrow! La!

My plan for the first half of fall break: hang out with Claudia and have fun.
My plan for the second half of fall break: catch up on sleep, history reading, and do some other work.

The first half sounds more fun, but the second half is going to be very useful. I may actually get myself back onto a normal (or at least more normal) sleep cycle... That would be nice. Of course, I'll probably screw it up again as soon as classes start back up. Ah well.

I haven't posted a quiz result for quite some time... So let's do this.


You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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First, an anecdote: Tonight at Sharples I got pasta... Very long line. The scrumptious chocolate pie that was for dessert was in low supply when I got in line; by the time I had my other food they were all gone. I went and sat down, and he had a piece of pie on his tray... That he had gotten for me. He saw they were running low, he knew I was in a long line, he knows my fondness for all things dessert... So he grabbed me a slice. Not at all important, very minor... But at the same time very sweet.

Now, my point: There are all sorts of little things like this, and they're all very sweet and wonderful. And when you combine them with larger nice things, then the end result is a really great relationship.

Finally, the conclusion: All this makes Jen a very happy girl.

Now if only I was caught up on my history reading... Then things would be absolutely wonderful.

I just got back my very first college paper... I did pretty good. Woohoo!

Darn you Squawkbox. It seems that because people actually use my commenting system, they want to charge me for it now. Grr. So I signed up for another account, using I different email address. As Marci said, I "cheated the system." However, due to this, I may have lost all of my earlier comments... I'm not sure. I suppose we shall see.

I finally forced myself out of bed about 30 minutes ago. I've completely missed breakfast and brunch, but I don't care. I feel well rested, and I also feel immensely happy.

I'm feeling something that I don't know exactly how to describe... It's like this warm fuzzy feeling that is at once magnified and subtle... It's spread throughout my entire body and has penetrated my soul. I think you might call it love.

Just got back from the Hunt. It was quite entertaining. There were many more monsters than just the 2 dactyls... There were lots of hobgoblins, some orcs, 3 ninja turtles, a werewolf, a cat, the sphinx, the Jabberwock... Yeah. It was great. Lots of people running around in small groups with foam swords, whapping monsters to win poker chips in order to buy things. If you get hit, you die, so you give up your sword and go back to the line to get a new one. I killed 2 or 3 monsters, and I got killed many times... But all in all, it was a fun 2 hours of amusement... And when I left, it was still going strong. I think it only ends when both dactyls are killed. Which could take awhile. Because the dactyls have guards, as well as water guns that act as murderous venom. Very hard to get close to them.

Of course, the real issue at hand is who thought up of this thing in the first place?! I'm rather curious... It's much more elaborate than I expected, and it's really rather impressively done. Did someone just sitting around at a SWIL meeting a number of years ago just randomly think, "Hey, why don't we run a huge LARP and invite the entire campus?" Actually, that probably is exactly what happened. The really surprising thing is that it's become a tradition and keeps happening year after year and tons of people show up for it.

Last night's radio show was interesting. First of all, the transmitter wasn't functioning, so it was being broadcast solely over the Internet. Yeah... Apparently when the DJ before me came in a bit before 1, the lights were off and everything was off... So she turned stuff on... But the transmitter wouldn't transmit.

Despite this, we both did our shows, as did Chase. We just had a very limited number of listeners... I myself had at most 3, and halfway through my show, 2 of them came to the studio. So the last half of my show was all for Alex. I hope he enjoyed it.

Even if there hadn't been any technical difficulties, it would have still been an interesting show, I think. I was really tired when I got there, so I tried to wake myself up with loud, fast music... So I started off with some Finch and NIN... After a little while I had some Fugazi and Bad Religion and Operation Ivy... But I eventually gave into my sleepy side and ended with Belle and Sebastian. So... Odd mix of music, indeed. Unfortunately, I forgot to copy down the set list, so I don't remember all the songs I played. Ah well.

The SWIL Pterodactyl Hunt is tonight. This should be quite an interesting experience... I really have no idea what to expect. Wait, that's not quite true. I know to expect foam swords and various people running around smacking each other with them. Other than that, though...

My trip to Bard over fall break is starting to take shape. Woohoo!

It appears that my body has no idea how to cope with 8 hours of sleep.

I was more out of it today than I have been in a long time... Instead of feeling like I was going to doze off in history, I actually DID doze off a few times. I was a little better in philosophy, and the theological discussion that somewhat ensued got me pretty energetic... (Lesson: Jen needs to engage in a theological discussion every morning in order to be fully awake for class). That energy lasted through lunch. After lunch I made some progress in reading, but then I got tired again... And in my psych attachment, I was practically falling asleep until we started talking about some things... So yeah. So much for getting more sleep. I doubled the time I slept, and I had half the energy, it seems. I just can't win.

On the up side... Study break tonight! This week, the girls in the fishbowl are showing a movie... But I'm a Cheerleader. So I'll finally get a chance to see it, Claudia.