So now I know more than I did, which is good, but also not. This is the sort of thing that I never want to hear about. Not because I want to live in a bubble, but because I just don't want it to actually happen. Drugs don't exactly scare me, but they do worry me a bit. I'm fine with people drinking alcohol, though I'm a firm believer in moderation. I can handle people doing pot, even though I don't really approve... But when it gets to harder stuff, then I get worried and not happy and such. I just don't like it. Maybe part of it is that I don't understand the attraction at all. I watch movies like Requiem for a Dream and I hear about things like this happening to people I know, and I just don't understand it. But I'm glad I don't understand it, I think... Because it's sort of like a guard against something like this ever happening to me. But it doesn't help people I know. So I still worry about them. Such is life, I guess... But I really wish it wasn't.

And now, a song...

I woke up...
Tried to get dressed.
But I was alarmed, I was distressed.

Though I always, always try to do my best,
I had become a sniveling mess...
A sniveling mess, a sniveling mess.

Will you love me if I'm a mess?
Will you love me if I'm a mess?
Will you love me?
Will you love me?

Hold on...
I want to make sure you comprehend.
Hold on...
I need you to be comfortable.

Did you understand?
Did you understand what I am?

With that resolved,
I guess I'll go...
Pack my bags,
Move to Borneo.

When I get there
I'll live in a tree...
I'm tellin' all y'all that's where I'll be
If you need me.

Will you love me if I'm a mess?
Will you love me if I'm a mess?
Will you love me?
Will you love me?
Will you love me if I'm a mess?

Hold on...
I want to make sure you comprehend.
Hold on...
I need you to be comfortable.

Did you understand?
Did you understand what I am?

-- Steve Burns, "A Sniveling Mess"
(Yes, that's the Steve from Blue's Clues... Odd, isn't it? But the music is good.)